“The Real Me”

When do you realize

“God I am old”

When your Son’s Friend

Refers to you “Dear”

“What” you say to yourself inside

I maybe in my Sixties

But I am not

In a Retirement Home yet

Never

Let alone Dead

 

You Marry and go from

Working in the City and the Seventies

To being “David’s Wife”

You no longer have a name

Let alone a brain of your own

You are still someones Daughter

Now someone’s Wife

A Home to look after

That’s now your life

 

Years later a Mother

Which is so wonderful

One little Son

Then two little Sons

They are your life

Your Husband no longer needs you

Stop complaining

“You have a good life”

 

Now you are Widowed

And the years roll by

Two Sons still at home

They tell me they know my mind

Always a Loner

Deep down that’s what I am

But where is the real me?

 

A lovely Friend told me

She is still inside

I must stop Her hiding

And let Her out

 

 

 

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14 thoughts on ““The Real Me”

  1. Sounds like those two sons are old enough to fend for themselves so you can finally start doing things for you!? What would you like to do? Study, travel, volunteer …
    A good question is what will you regret? Then tackle that.

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  2. Did it ever occur to you that you don’t need to go to San Francisco to let her out? I wonder if “Something More: Excavating Your Authentic Self” by Sarah Ban Breathnach would be a fun book for you to journal your way through. Or write poems about yourself as you went through it… If you think you’d like it, I will send it to you as a gift. I’ve been through it twice and found out sou much about myself! Here’s the description. Let me if you’d like it. I’d love to send it to you!

    From the author of Simple Abundance: A Daybook of Comfort and Joy comes a guided excavation for women who suspect that there’s something more to life than the top layer pursuits of money, sex, and love. In service to these restless souls who want to scratch beneath the surface, Ban Breathnach offers tidbit-sized essays that help women unearth pay dirt–their reason for being.

    Using archaeology as her frame of reference, Ban Breathnach suggests imaginative exercises at the end of each chapter, which she refers to as “Field Work.” Although it occasionally feels overdone, the archaeology metaphor works well–helping readers unearth their past choices and circumstances to better understand the soul’s current mission.

    Early in the book, Ban Breathnach offers this enticing invitation to go on a spiritual dig: “Besides the fact that your soul is one of the last unlooted sources of the miraculous, with discoveries as spectacular as any found in the Delta of Venus or Egypt’s Valley of the Kings, you can embark on a soul trip and be back before anyone even notices you’re missing. They might be curious about that gleam in your eye and that flush on your cheek, but I’ll never tell if you won’t. Are you game? We’re heading to the sacred site of your soul.” —Gail Hudson

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